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Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 2:10 pm

"Do you think I didn't think about all that? I know what you did and I know why you did it. You did it because you were hurt. Because you couldn't face that you had no meaning. But I want to help you find it. I want to be your meaning. I've forgiven you a thousand times over and I'd do it again." He stands up, moving over him. Only here is he taller than him.

"I get that I'm still just a kid... but I know what I want. And Milla isn't a question. I love her, but I don't love her like I love you." He carefully brings his hands to Alvin's face, cupping his cheeks carefully. "...I've always loved you."
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 2:19 pm

Alvin doesn't want to look him in the eyes because he's terrified of agreeing with him. It's a bad, bad place to be in especially when he's having doubts about just how much more of this his heart can take before he gives in completely.

"Jude," he says and he finally brings himself look him in he eyes. "You can't...understand what it means to love a guy like me."

There it is. The at nasty self depricating attitude rearing it's ugly head when he most expects it.

"It's not fair to you to have to deal with me." He insists and he tries to move Jude's hands from his face. "You deserve someone without all of this baggage."
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 2:22 pm

"Are you scared?... Of me ending up like Presa? Of me giving up on you?" He asks, his voice soft. He knows the name will sting and he gently strokes his skin. He meets his eyes, finally having found his resolve.

"I'm stronger than you think." He whispers, and brings him into a soft kiss. It lasts only moments, but to be the one initiating it... it makes Jude's heart pound.
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Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 2:33 pm

The name makes him flinch but he knew Jude was anticipating such a reaction by the way he tightened his hold on him.

The kiss makes him want to die.

Jude, holding him like this, was too unfair. He felt just like he'd always imagined he would, since he'd first met him.

"I'm scared of you not ending up like Presa," he admits quietly, so softly he hopes Jude doesn't hear him. "Because I never loved Presa."
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Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 2:38 pm

His fingers tremble at his cheeks. He wants to say more. There's still so much he wants to say, but instead he kisses him again, parting his lips and deepening it just a little bit. He just wants him to see it doesn't matter, none of it, to see that every other little detail falls to the wayside when it comes to him.

"...I love you, more than anything." He pauses, and allows his eyes to dart aside. "...I would die for you."
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Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 2:44 pm

He doesn't want Jude to say things like that and so he gives in and kisses him, tangling his fingers in his hair. He's not nearly as gentle as he keeps telling himself to be but he's wanted this for so long now he isn't sure he could force himself if he tried.

It hurts to hear him say that. It hurts so bad.

He pulls away but he doesn't let go of Jude.

"I love you," he says it and it sounds like a lie even though he knows it isn't so he says it again. "I really do love you, Jude."
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 2:48 pm

Jude returns the kiss with almost a hint of hunger, his legs trembling from how much he's always wanted this. It's beyond hot, and if he'd done this only last year he was pretty sure he'd have toppled right over.

The words hit his heart so hard it hurts. He musters a smile, bringing him into a tight hug. "I love you... I love you..." He repeats, his voice almost strained.
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 2:54 pm

Alvin sighs, and wraps his arms around him. And then he groans.

"Balan is going to be so goddamn smug," he grumbles. Then, he pauses and pulls away from Jude so he can look him in the eyes. "...did...did Balan put you up to this somehow?"
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Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 2:57 pm

He sighs, and nods softly. "...he told me you used to have feelings for me. I... didn't know if you still did." He explains, trying to keep eye contact. "...I'm sorry. I was scared you... didn't anymore." He looks sheepishly away.
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 3:02 pm

He should have figured Balan couldn't keep his mouth shut about it despite his explicit instructions to do just that.

"Figured as much." He sighs but brushes it off relatively. "I really, really am going to kill him this time."
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 3:04 pm

Jude looks aside still, ashamed he hid it for so long.

"...I'm sorry." He says, letting go of him.
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 3:09 pm

Alvin ruffles his hair reassuringly.

"Don't worry about it," he says with a slight shrugged. "My fault for telling Balan anything."
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 3:12 pm

"...I'm sort of glad you did." He admits, thought in a quieter tone. "I don't know if... I could have made myself tell you."
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 3:17 pm

"Yeah, I guess...there's that at least," he concedes. "But if he tells you anything else you'd better tell me this time."
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 3:20 pm

He can't help but smile at that and nods, kissing him again but only quickly before sitting down beside him.

"...I seriously do love you." He repeats, not sure he'll ever tire of saying it.
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 3:24 pm

"I think I got that impression," he teases him but he's smiling. He leans onto him, a familiar position for the two of them. "Hey, so...are we really gonna do this for real?"
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Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 3:26 pm

"Do you... feel comfortable with that?" He asks, voice soft. "I know I do, as long as you're with me." He's firm in these words.
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 5:17 pm

"I want to, but..." he frowns slightly. "I'm still not sure it's the best idea. What is everyone else going to think, is all."
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Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 5:35 pm

"...Can I be really honest?" He asks, giving a slightly apologetic look. "...I don't really care. I love them... and I respect their decisions. But I can't... I can't be without you anymore. If you don't feel like we can tell anyone... that's okay, but I have to be with you."
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 5:39 pm

He sighs, a bit worried that might be his answer. They'd really kill him if they heard how Jude talked like this around him. What had he done to deserve having such a wonderful person fall in love with him?

"I'm not surprised that's your answer," he says. "It'll get around sooner or later, so I suppose if it comes up we better not keep it a secret."
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 5:48 pm

He leans against him with a soft sigh.

"I'll be with you the entire way. Always." He says, drawing him into a soft kiss, tracing a finger over the line of his jaw. "...I'm really glad to be here. With you. It still kind of feels like I'm dreaming." He admits, face slightly flushed.
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by Axton on Thu Jun 16, 2016 7:34 pm

"Nope, I've had this dream a few times and it's not playing out like normal, so no luck there," he teases him with a smile.
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Re: Fake Dating? Fake Dating.

Post by sirenangel on Thu Jun 16, 2016 7:38 pm

Jude sighs in a sort of fake relief, if only because he wasn't really worried about it. "I'm glad, because I wouldn't ever want to forget this." He almost giggles.
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